Meh

its how i feel today.  just meh.  i'm not sure why.  just having one of those off days.  i really want to leave the office and i will be shortly, its been a slow day and that hasn't helped the meh's at all.  i don't know what brings them on, but once they are in its hard to shake them.  i'm hoping the weekend brings a relief to the meh's, i have plenty of projects i need to work on and i think if i get something accomplished it will help a lot.  we'll see.  have a good weekend whoever may be reading this blog.  you know, all one of you.

just another day

Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain

the rain was nice last night. when it hits our chimney it makes this bing/ting sound that i just love and could fall asleep too. i can't hear it in our bedroom but could just sleep on the couch but i don't think john would like that.  i hope that with the new roof that is coming and cleaned out gutters and rehung gutters, that maybe the front porch might not flood like it does now and i can go out and enjoy the rain.  one day i hope to get a nice patio set out there, something comfy to enjoy the rain and all the other days.

the husband-guy is now goatee-less after a mishap with his trimmer. the guard wonked out and he ended up with this strip underneath his chin that was just not going to be salvageable so out came the razor and a 15 year old stepped out of the shower. i kid. he always looks so young when he's facial hairless. the kid saw him this morning and she got all weird. she gets used to it (he's shaved maybe twice) but in the beginning she's all odd about it. i can't even explain. i'll have to take a picture of him tonight with her, i like getting these shots so you can see their similarities more.

work has been pretty steady this week. it slowed down yesterday and this morning is quiet so far. i predict it will be insane next week though.

this weekend i hope to visit some garage sales, work on cleaning up a dresser i found for the kid, and placing this cabinet in the garage we got for free from a colleague. our garage is a mess again after husband-guy got his new riding lawnmower beast. that's my nickname for it. the garage is also a mess from my little spray painting projects, too. i need to work on some of that this weekend as well.

okay well this is my update for today =)

Slave to the Grind

there is something to be said for a routine.  its nice when all your ducks are in a row, when you know exactly what you should be doing.  however, lately i'm sick of my ducks and want someone else to put them in a row for me.

i feel like everyday is the same with only slight adjustments. i feel like all i do is pick up after other people and no one picks up after me or themselves. i get tired of schlepping shoes to the front door, picking up game controllers, books, or random socks day to day. i get tired of waking up and having to do this, that, and the other before i can even think about doing something for me.  i hate having to clean constantly to keep the house looking decent. perhaps this is why after my two day cleaning spree for the husbands birthday party, i've ceased doing anything.  the sink is piled with dishes because i have zero desire to unload the dishwasher.  the laundry room is piled high with loads to wash, dry, and put away.  i'm sick of it.  i went through this feeling a few weeks ago, it passed briefly but wow is it back with a vengeance.

i want someone else to be responsible for doing the dishes after i cook dinner, or even when i don't.  i want someone else to worry about the laundry some days.  i just want to stop wishing and want it to be a reality that i don't have to do it alone.

i am so tired when i get home from work that i have no desire to keep on going, but i have to.  i have no choice.  well i guess i do, but then the whole house, kit and kaboodle go to the crapper. 

so tonight i can look forward to laundry, dishes, and probably some vacuuming!

the bud is bursting

a post by another friend reminded me i needed to update this blog. i've not abandonded it, but not even knowing if i have any one reading it doesn't help give me the drive to post often!

this summer has been busy but then again it was much of the same - work, summer camp, chores, sleep. oh yea and a couple lake trips thrown in for good measure.

life came full circle back to the regular scheduled programming yesterday when the kid started third grade. OMG. third grade. seriously? i remember when she started kindergarten and wanted to keep her small forever. she's grown by leaps and freaking bounds, we couldn't be prouder of who she is turning out to be.

oh how she grows


First day of Kindergarten August 2006

she grew so much during that first year of school.. it amazes me even now how she just caught on to everything, i remember the first time she learned to read her first book (elmo sneezes), how she just loved school and was so lit up inside.


First day of First Grade August 2007

then came first grade where her appetite for books soared, where she was still so excited about learning and school and proclaimed math her favorite subject.



First Day of Second Grade August 2008

second grade came with a quickness i wasn't ready for. she had grown so much in so many ways. still with an appetite for knowledge, devouring books left and right, and hating whenever she had to miss a day.

since school got out she couldn't wait to get back. we've been counting down the days and everyday at least twice (today it was 4 times) she laments how she wishes tomorrow she could go to school. she was so happy to be able to go to school when she got enrolled, just for that brief 15 minutes.

i can't wait to take her picture on the first day and look back at how much she's changed. with all her changes, each year she changes john and i profoundly. what an amazing little girl we've got.

Here she is on the first day of Third Grade:


First day of Third Grade August 2009