pendulum

sitting here thinking about my motivation and current lack thereof. yesterday i was a ball of energy getting things done (maybe not all the things i should have been getting done, but i was ticking things off my to-do list pretty quickly.

today, complete and utter 180 degree change. i have NO motivation. i don't know if its just continued exhaustion from the daylight savings change, getting my monthly visitor (who is not really monthly as its only come for me twice in the last 4 months - before that it was at least 4-5 years since the red queen rolled into town), or my upcoming surgery next week and i know that i'll be able to be away from work for so many days i may be deliriously happy.

right now all i want to do is curl up and nap. i wore my husbands hoodie to work today because i was freezing and i wanted to be close to him (what is this highschool?). so i'm all comfy, cramping like there is no time for it tomorrow, and really want to nap. come on pain pills, kick in, and then maybe the motivation will return.

*holy crap, my co-workers phone just went off and its SO LOUD THAT IS TOTALLY SCARED THE CRAP OUT OF ME WHEN IT RANG -- dude, turn your phone down or i dunno, carry it with you in your pocket!!!*

so i think i need to get some crap done..

*ugh, its ringing again.*

okay so my want and desire to be here is quickly leaving me (or has already left). i must figure out how to get some work done and now.