thankful

"Ordinary riches can be stolen: real riches cannot. In your soul are infinitely precious things that cannot be taken from you". -Oscar Wilde

 

what are the real riches in a persons life?   in my life they are my family and my friends.  those are things i cannot live without.  each day is a gift, each day should be cherished as best as it can be.  i am so thankful to be part of the often crazy, unpredictable, and delightfully fun family that i have.

my parents are great, though we have often not seen eye to eye, they stand by me, and we get through any of the tough stuff.  my brother is brilliant, i couldn't be prouder to be his sister.  we've had our fair share of tough breaks, but we have managed to come out with a better understanding of one another (though there are times we both probably still scratch our heads at one another). 

my husband, i love him. truly feel like he and i can do anything.  we battle also (gee, see a theme here?) but we always come out trying to find the best in one another.  we've gone through a lot and we probably still have more to go through, but together we can get through it.  my daughter, how fortunate, grateful, dare i use the word blessed i am in being her mommy.  she has shaped me in ways i am still figuring out.  teaching me things on a daily basis, seeing the world through a new set of eyes.  she embraced me as her own and for that i am forever grateful.

i try to do my best by her, by all my family and each day i get a chance to make things better than the last. i'm still learning, i'm still trying.  i love them all so much though and i just hope they know how much they all mean to me.

and so it goes

if a day didn't contain at least one headache, i would think i had died.  still dealing with sinus issues even after my big surgery in the spring.  things aren't as bad as they were last fall, but i'm still semi-miserable on a daily basis.  if its not headache, its face pain and really i could go without either.  today i have a sinus-ct schedule and tomorrow i get to find out how bad things have gotten again.  the polyps are growing back, more on the right now than the left.  possibility of another surgery. i'm freaked out of my mind but not really sharing that with anyone.  most of its due to money and the other part is i hate coming out of anesthesia. its awful.  oh then there is the recovery time when i had to blow my nose after a sinus rinse and i thought my brain was coming out.  yeah, pretty gross.  we'll find out tomorrow what the future holds.  i also have to start a prescription of cipro to help with whatever infection may still be lingering.  fun times, let me tell you.

so it goes, another day.. another headache (currently going on for hours), teeth pain, and a meeting in 20 minutes...

however, despite all of this crap.. there is one amazing thing that happened today..  my husband got a well deserved promotion at work!!!!  i'm so unbelievably happy for him.  he deserved this so much, he's worked so hard for this company for the last 5 years, and he will truly kick butt at it.  i know it will mean more work for him but i'll support him like i always have and cheer him on!  congrats, my love!!!

fall feeling

of course this is a random post, of course i didn't keep my bargain of posting more often. why?  because i let everything easily fall back into the same routine and seems changing it is the hardest thing EVER.   its been quite awhile since i put pen to blog or something like that.

life has been treating us well lately though.  its been a rough financial few months, but we'll get through it.  life is good, everyone is healthy, and we've got a roof over our head.  honestly, i can't ask for more.  well i can, but that's just greedy. 

the other day people were complaining about the weather and i had the urge to reach around and smack them.  this is my favorite time of year.  the colors in the sky, on the ground as the leaves fall, the chill in the air.  i'm my happiest (and most stressed) at this time of year.  the fact the a/c is off, the heat is as well makes me smile and curl up on the couch with a blanket and tea.  the sun has been shining strong the last couple of days and its just added to the brilliance that are the fall colors. 

i have to get back to being creative.  i have started knitting again, but haven't touched my project in about a week. i am going to pick the needles back up tonight while watching "its the great pumpkin, charlie brown" with my family.  i love peanuts :)

that's it for now, a quicky post to remind myself to post. 

Meh

its how i feel today.  just meh.  i'm not sure why.  just having one of those off days.  i really want to leave the office and i will be shortly, its been a slow day and that hasn't helped the meh's at all.  i don't know what brings them on, but once they are in its hard to shake them.  i'm hoping the weekend brings a relief to the meh's, i have plenty of projects i need to work on and i think if i get something accomplished it will help a lot.  we'll see.  have a good weekend whoever may be reading this blog.  you know, all one of you.

just another day

Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain

the rain was nice last night. when it hits our chimney it makes this bing/ting sound that i just love and could fall asleep too. i can't hear it in our bedroom but could just sleep on the couch but i don't think john would like that.  i hope that with the new roof that is coming and cleaned out gutters and rehung gutters, that maybe the front porch might not flood like it does now and i can go out and enjoy the rain.  one day i hope to get a nice patio set out there, something comfy to enjoy the rain and all the other days.

the husband-guy is now goatee-less after a mishap with his trimmer. the guard wonked out and he ended up with this strip underneath his chin that was just not going to be salvageable so out came the razor and a 15 year old stepped out of the shower. i kid. he always looks so young when he's facial hairless. the kid saw him this morning and she got all weird. she gets used to it (he's shaved maybe twice) but in the beginning she's all odd about it. i can't even explain. i'll have to take a picture of him tonight with her, i like getting these shots so you can see their similarities more.

work has been pretty steady this week. it slowed down yesterday and this morning is quiet so far. i predict it will be insane next week though.

this weekend i hope to visit some garage sales, work on cleaning up a dresser i found for the kid, and placing this cabinet in the garage we got for free from a colleague. our garage is a mess again after husband-guy got his new riding lawnmower beast. that's my nickname for it. the garage is also a mess from my little spray painting projects, too. i need to work on some of that this weekend as well.

okay well this is my update for today =)

Slave to the Grind

there is something to be said for a routine.  its nice when all your ducks are in a row, when you know exactly what you should be doing.  however, lately i'm sick of my ducks and want someone else to put them in a row for me.

i feel like everyday is the same with only slight adjustments. i feel like all i do is pick up after other people and no one picks up after me or themselves. i get tired of schlepping shoes to the front door, picking up game controllers, books, or random socks day to day. i get tired of waking up and having to do this, that, and the other before i can even think about doing something for me.  i hate having to clean constantly to keep the house looking decent. perhaps this is why after my two day cleaning spree for the husbands birthday party, i've ceased doing anything.  the sink is piled with dishes because i have zero desire to unload the dishwasher.  the laundry room is piled high with loads to wash, dry, and put away.  i'm sick of it.  i went through this feeling a few weeks ago, it passed briefly but wow is it back with a vengeance.

i want someone else to be responsible for doing the dishes after i cook dinner, or even when i don't.  i want someone else to worry about the laundry some days.  i just want to stop wishing and want it to be a reality that i don't have to do it alone.

i am so tired when i get home from work that i have no desire to keep on going, but i have to.  i have no choice.  well i guess i do, but then the whole house, kit and kaboodle go to the crapper. 

so tonight i can look forward to laundry, dishes, and probably some vacuuming!

the bud is bursting

a post by another friend reminded me i needed to update this blog. i've not abandonded it, but not even knowing if i have any one reading it doesn't help give me the drive to post often!

this summer has been busy but then again it was much of the same - work, summer camp, chores, sleep. oh yea and a couple lake trips thrown in for good measure.

life came full circle back to the regular scheduled programming yesterday when the kid started third grade. OMG. third grade. seriously? i remember when she started kindergarten and wanted to keep her small forever. she's grown by leaps and freaking bounds, we couldn't be prouder of who she is turning out to be.

oh how she grows


First day of Kindergarten August 2006

she grew so much during that first year of school.. it amazes me even now how she just caught on to everything, i remember the first time she learned to read her first book (elmo sneezes), how she just loved school and was so lit up inside.


First day of First Grade August 2007

then came first grade where her appetite for books soared, where she was still so excited about learning and school and proclaimed math her favorite subject.



First Day of Second Grade August 2008

second grade came with a quickness i wasn't ready for. she had grown so much in so many ways. still with an appetite for knowledge, devouring books left and right, and hating whenever she had to miss a day.

since school got out she couldn't wait to get back. we've been counting down the days and everyday at least twice (today it was 4 times) she laments how she wishes tomorrow she could go to school. she was so happy to be able to go to school when she got enrolled, just for that brief 15 minutes.

i can't wait to take her picture on the first day and look back at how much she's changed. with all her changes, each year she changes john and i profoundly. what an amazing little girl we've got.

Here she is on the first day of Third Grade:


First day of Third Grade August 2009