summer heat wave

wow, so its another long stretch that i'm not posting here (for all my 5 readers). what can i say? i got busy? mostly its that i stick a lot to twitter and facebook and that's about it. i'm going to try to get back to regular posts and maybe try to get readership up if i can figure out some good topics to write about.

mostly right now, i'm hating the summer heat. it was bearable at the beginning of the month but now its just miserable. over 100 F daily, it was in the 90's around 9am today. come on! i do not like heat, summer is nice when its still around 80F out, i can handle that, but beyond that i'm toast. crispy, burnt, non-buttered, toast.

this week has been met with headaches, body aches, lethargy, and of course the regular everyday things. today i'm trying to that frown upside down, but realizing tomorrow i have to trek into the city for a meeting that i don't want to have, in heat, probably dressed up, is just no bueno in my world. i'm apathetic about some things at this point and its really hard to dig deep and give it my all.

i will say that i'm loving my new iphone 3gs. i had a first gen iphone and when the new one came out i decided it was time to upgrade. so far i'm loving it, except you have to be mindful of the battery life. it goes quicker or maybe i'm just using it more? who knows. i love it. tomorrow i'm going to the apple store to get a case for it before i crap the holy hell out of it.

looks like its time for a drink refill so i'll just end this post with a shout out to my brother who i'm sure is hotter than me right now, living it up in Austin, Tx. his wife joins him on saturday an i know he couldn't be more excited!

wow

i hadn't realized how long it had been since i posted, almost two months. geesh! i don't even have time now to post anything of substance. things have been CRAZY busy lately and i'm trying to get a handle on everything. i admit i can't do everything and i don't even want to but i just keep trying to get things done anyway.

this weekend my little brother graduates from law school and the next day he moves to austin, tx. i'm going to miss the hell out of him. i was glad to spend a few hours with him yesterday while he got a new tattoo - its amazing.

the weekend will be filled with celebrating the hell out of him and being around family. it should be good!

must get back to the grind and try to get out of here early so i can enjoy some of this GORGEOUS weather!!

the all powerful oz

have you ever witnessed something and wished you could get the inside scoop? ever wondered about the neighbors down the way and what is really going on behind closed doors? ever wished you could be the fly on the wall during a meeting?

i was thinking about this today as i reflected on a situation in our neighborhood. i won't go into detail, but i was thinking about how many days a kid could be absent before things turned bad for them at school and what is really going on with that family.

if i had a super power, it might be to be able to be that fly on the wall or just give over and be omnipotent - to know all. that would be a very powerful and dangerous super power to have, but one i think i'd have fun with (if not feel a bit cheeky about). i'm very curious by nature, have been since i was a young child and that makes my imagination and my sleuthing kick into overdrive sometimes. i admit i get a rush when i find something out about someone (that they didn't want you to know), but i also feel ashamed i'm doing this, but i just can't help it, sometimes its just too easy to find things out especially with regards to the internet. my friend amy recently stated that if you put it out there, well them you have no right to complain about someone finding something out.

i really wish i could know what is going on down the street with this family, i wish i could know what is going on in regards to a few faux-friendships, and well, there are other things i'd like to know, but i can't give away all my secrets now can i? =)

cha cha changes

coming soon there is going to be a big change in my family. my younger brother is going to graduate from OU law school in May and then he's going to be moving. moving away. moving to another state. he's going to be switching allegiance (just kidding) and moving with his wife to austin, texas. they love austin and are down there i think about every couple of months to see concerts. my brother is leaving a few days after graduation to embark on classes and studies for taking the texas state bar exam. this is an amazing achievement, this graduating law school. my brother had some rough patches several years ago and to see how he's grown, changed, and become this amazingly educated, strong, exceptional man makes me swell with pride to call him brother.

our relationship has had its ups and downs. i'm grateful for his patience, love, and no matter what i do, he always seems to be there for me in the end. although it will have some physical distance, we can still manage to continue fostering a great relationship. i love him and am so proud of him.

the changes his moving will bring about not only affect me, but my parents. this is the first time our family will not have lived in the same state and within an hour of each other. first time ever. EVER. we grew up in the military. my father was in the air force so we were all we had most of the time. holidays were not like your typical holidays, we generally just had us or if we were really lucky a relative or two would come to see us (in germany, england, north dakota). i don't know how holidays will work from here on out, i'm sure they will change and that will be tough i know on my parents. my mom has finally softened to the idea that her son is moving away. i am glad that she's finally coming around, but i know how in her heart its probably breaking just a little. she's never had her kids live away from her. the farthest my brother and i have both lived was 45 minutes to an hour away up in the city. this was still local as far as we were concerned. his move to austin is going to take some getting used to, even if i hardly see him now. knowing he is taking classes in town, knowing his apartment is a 20 minute drive away. those are comforting to me.

i do look forward to going to visit him in austin. i've never been there and since he and his wife love it so much, i know that my family will have a great time down there.

i can't wait to see him at commencement getting his law degree. i can't wait to see the look on his face as he's presented with his (temporary) diploma. i can't wait to scream my head off for him. i'm so proud of him. i can't even measure in words or rulers how proud i am of my little brother.

notebook schmotebook

you know (well really you probably don't unless you are allison!), i have a notebook fetish. well really and office supplies fetish, obsession, so much so it borders on insanity. i mean i cannot go into a store without checking out their office supply section. to all those that might want to get me a giftcard to office depot - don't. i have more office supplies than a fortune 500 company could need.

so with all these notebooks that i have, you would think it would be easy for me to whip one out and write down some blog ideas, right? nope. never ceases to amaze me how many things i come up with that i want to write about get lost in my fuzzy mom-wife-me brain. lost forever. never to be stumbled upon again. i will rectify this though by making a pledge to myself that anytime i think of a writing prompt, i will jot it down. if i ever write about those prompts, well.. that's another story altogether!

recap of life

i've been rather quiet lately. had lots going on. finally had my sinus surgery and have been recovering. the surgery was good, well as good as surgery can be, right? my surgeon said it was the worst case he'd ever seen. it took him over an hour just to see something that looked normal when he went into my sinuses. nice, huh? my entire left side sinus areas were compacted with gunk. he got all that out, cut out polyps that i have growing in all those areas, and put a balloon in my frontal sinus to help widen the sinus space to help with any future issues.

i was under for about 4 hours, then coming out of it i didn't have a great time. i don't do well with anesthesia, it makes me extremely ill and i hate it. i could handle all other aspects of this situation but that. it took me several hours to feeel up to leave the hospital. i left 12 hours after i first checked in. the next few days were rough and now a week and a few days later i'm feeling more normal. i have my second post-op follow-up next week and hopefully things are still healing as well as they are and should be.

i've returned to work, first working from home, then a few half days because i have been exhausted. that seems like its finally fading so i'm well on my way to total normalcy (well as normal as i ever have been!). the pain in my head and face come and go and i suspect they will be present for some time as things heal up. luckily i have pain meds to help me manage.

well that's about all i have for now, just needed to get back to writing something! i'm reading a few books right now - just started "it sucked and then i cried" by heather b. armstrong (otherwise known as dooce). its hilarious and it makes you want to reach out and hug her and every other pregnant woman that has had a hard pregnancy. i'm just into it but so far i'm so glad i got it. i love her writing and she's got a way of telling a story. i'm also finally getting into "team of rivals" about abraham lincoln. all this while i await the arrival of book 8 of the sookie stackhouse series! its out in hardback but i have paperback for the first 7 so i'm waiting for its release next week. also should arrive "my booky wook" by russell brand. i think he's brilliant. the last two books plus "science of good and evil" this one focuses on why people cheat, lie, and gossip. should be a good read considering all the power insanity going on in a certain area of my life.

well i just wanted to get this out and i want to get back to watching "west wing". i love this show. i really love it. my brother lent me the box set and i'm trying to get through the whole set before he graduates from law school in may. i still can't believe my little brother is going to be a lawyer. i'm so effing proud of the man he has grown to be.

well.. back to some west wing, cuddles with puppies, and tasty cup of tea.

pendulum

sitting here thinking about my motivation and current lack thereof. yesterday i was a ball of energy getting things done (maybe not all the things i should have been getting done, but i was ticking things off my to-do list pretty quickly.

today, complete and utter 180 degree change. i have NO motivation. i don't know if its just continued exhaustion from the daylight savings change, getting my monthly visitor (who is not really monthly as its only come for me twice in the last 4 months - before that it was at least 4-5 years since the red queen rolled into town), or my upcoming surgery next week and i know that i'll be able to be away from work for so many days i may be deliriously happy.

right now all i want to do is curl up and nap. i wore my husbands hoodie to work today because i was freezing and i wanted to be close to him (what is this highschool?). so i'm all comfy, cramping like there is no time for it tomorrow, and really want to nap. come on pain pills, kick in, and then maybe the motivation will return.

*holy crap, my co-workers phone just went off and its SO LOUD THAT IS TOTALLY SCARED THE CRAP OUT OF ME WHEN IT RANG -- dude, turn your phone down or i dunno, carry it with you in your pocket!!!*

so i think i need to get some crap done..

*ugh, its ringing again.*

okay so my want and desire to be here is quickly leaving me (or has already left). i must figure out how to get some work done and now.